I want to berieve

This post is gonna be a little bit different than my other posts, this is not about bikes, stunt bikes, mechanics, technical problems, poems, drawings, special parts or how good I am.
This is about faith.
1= Faith: 1. Belief, trust, confidence, reliance. ( in the ability, goodness, etc., of a person ; in the efficacy or worth of a thing ; or in the truth of a statement or doctrine) In early use, only with reference to religious objects; this is still the prevalent application, and often colours the wider use.
2. Phrases. to give faith: to yield believe to.
3. That which is or should be believed. a system of religious faith, Christian, Jewish, mohammedan, etc. faith. Also Confession, Rule of Faith, for which see those words.. The faith; the true religion; usually = the Christian faith.
4. Good faith; fidelity, loyalty. Honesty of intention in entering into engagements,
and so on..
the point is, how am I going to see Christianity in my live?
I know about spirituality, and a bit about Christianity.
looking about my past I should be a good Christian
looking at my current position I should be a good "spiritualtition?"
so what will it be?
The typical Stephan answer is a answer both sides can cope with.
* not talking about getting drunk (like I'm doing now) and 4get the whole thing*
But I've thought of the following.
First question: Is in one side an absolute value?
Answer: yes Christianity, God is Absolute.
than you don't have a choice, God is on top of it all.
* was that so hard to figure out?

next up, how to connect all the links?
there are roughly two ways of doing this.
first scenario: everything has begun as the bible tells us, god has made a system that doesn't make a principal difference between humans and animals. He has created a complex system of energies where humans can find the same or less comfort, power, and rest as they can in god. Thus making the energy flow of the world a kind of secondary god. ( saves him some time to do the garden)

second scenario: everything has begun as the bible tells us, when he took the paradise away for us, he didn't really do it completely because he had faith in us. The paradise is still out there but not accessible for every human being. This makes the energy flow around the world the hidden paradise where some people can go trough meditation or prayer truth is.

I do believe there is a god. But a do believe there is more than that, and that is called spirituality in this world. I can't ban any of those from my live because I've experienced them both.
I have great respect for those who truely believe. I sometimes anvy them.
Let's yust see what the future will bring.

_dregoon